Expectations vs. Reality

Not everything in life can go as smoothly as we plan it. Sometimes we expect more of ourselves and our plans than we can actually do.

This is the case for Mongolia. I wanted to come to Mongolia to learn from the locals and help the people around me. I believed that I could conquer this trip and was prepared to be there. I did not realize how difficult that truly would be.

After some time in the country, I realized that I had made a mistake by going. I was not prepared for the difficulties I faced and I felt abandoned and isolated. The hospital was not what I expected and there was little regard for the feelings of the mother. For people who know me, I am very passionate about mothers and babies as well as the birth process. I believe it should be celebrated and treated with respect not violence and disdain. 

I am not a person who gives up easily and I fought hard to be able to stay. After much contemplation and weighing of all of the options, I decided it was best to return home. I was honestly concerned for my safety because of incidents that occurred on the streets and I was not willing to compromise my safety. 

Now all of this is not to say that everything was bad in Mongolia. I had an incredible host family. They welcomed me into their home with open arms and I became very close to them. I learned from them and laughed with them. 

Mom and sister

Great homemade food. 

I know many of you were looking forward to hearing about this trip and I am sorry to disappoint. I believe very strongly in self preservation and making sound decisions. The decision to leave Mongolia was made in a sound state of mind with no reservations or regrets. I believe that visiting Mongolia could be an amazing experience but integrating yourself in the life and work as an alone American woman is a different story. 

I have returned home with a greater appreciation for America. I believe our healthcare system is backwards in many ways but has also evolved by leaps and bounds to benefit our patients. I am greatful for the many blessings I have and even the chance to go to Mongolia and experience things for myself no matter how it worked out. 

Thank you so much for following my blog these last few weeks. I have enjoyed sharing my experiences with you.